Taylor Armstrong

I've been a big fan of the real housewives of beverly hills. I love the show bc of the drama, bc I don't allow drama within my own physical word.

With that being said, Taylor Armstrong is a former housewife in the past seasons of the show.

I, LAST season, had mentioned my concern about her relationship with her husband to my friend.

What made me look at him and say...she's being abused? I called it from a mile away. I've been in the lifestyle of a physically, emotionally, and verbally abusive relationship. I see the signs. The controlling behavior and the terrified plead for help on Mrs. Armstrongs face. Her body emotions, her submissive actions and comments.
I was right. Long story short, Russell, her husband, killed himself (hung himself in their bedroom, taylor found him) after she divorced him. There were accusations that he had beaten her, abused her etc. From her, her friends, the web, pictures have been leaked etc.

STOP--- think.

Take this serious.

To us, at home. This is dramatic. We see these things from a screen, whether it be computer, tv or phone. We aren't there.
In turn, we forget on the other side of these devices, ARE REAL PEOPLE WHO HAVE REAL FEELINGS.

The ridiculous tweets, comments, opinions, etc that are being published are so degrading it is embarrassing to mankind.
Are these immature, judgmental bullies writing this stuff without thinking about what its like to be HER? Or even to just simply be themselves in a situation/lifestyle as hers?

Its easy to sit behind a wall and tear people down for the simple fact that you can, and not have to feel the pain and suffering they do when they try to close their eyes to fall asleep at night.

Everyone can talk, everyone can have an opinion, however it seems our world is crippled, hurting in result of taking advantage of "freedom of speech".
We have our people over in other countries fighting, sacrificing their own lives and families for our freedom, and this is how we treat each other? This is how we celebrate our freedom?
Really????
WHAT. THE. FUCK?

Really people? Why?

What is the purpose of being hateful and malicious for fun? How is hurting people and bringing them down entertaining?

Taylor Armstrong is human. What she has done, said, shit out, or ate for breakfast, shouldn't be societies focus right now. How is SHE feeling?

These bullies sleep at night with hateful humor on their conscience, with the deceiving feeling that karma isn't real, and after them for their actions.

Maybe ONE of those thousands of bullies that CHOSE to demean Taylor while she's in this state of life....maybe, just maybe its their kid that will be murdered by their bf 10 years down the road.

Maybe, just maybe, they will randomly get hit head on by a semi truck killing their whole family, being the only survivor, having only THEN to feel the pain they enhanced during this time on taylor. Bet your bottom dollar they won't think its karma cashing in at this tragic moment in their life.

Karma is a very real thing. Very.

Never, for a second, take advantage of the love you have in your heart.
Offer that love to someone when they are down, when they need a smile, or just nice "hello". All else aside. Is this hard to comprehend?

Its a wonderful feeling to treat people with the kindness and dignity that you, yourself deserve to be treated with.

Do so, and you will quickly realize the results of love are far more pleasurable then those results brought of by actions of hate.

I don't think our world was created for this kind of hatred, not when love is so much more powerful.

*shakes head in disgrace of these cruel humans*

Taylor, you are beautiful, you may be broken now, but you have your pieces in hand, and the ones who love you and support you WILL be your adhesive to help you put your world, your family, back together. Your strong. You've got this. Chin up lady. You have been through some of the darkest nights and scariest times, and you're still alive to tell about it. You're a winner. Don't let these negative neds and nancies shift your strength.
Love and support,
Addie
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Who am I now?

Sometimes the weight of life shifts and it feels like my world is spinning lopsided on a broken axel, and I'm either gonna lose my grip and fall off, or eventually give in and jump. I of course get those blasts of energy where I feel SO powerful, like I can fix not only my world, but all the floppy ones around me. That fades if I don't take my prozac on time.

January 26th 2006. Ill never ever ever forget that date. Here I sit, 6 years later, on this same date in a freezing cold field trying to feel my fingers as I vent to my blackberry...which will eventually reach you. (Technology is awesome yea?)

Some of you may know me as addison. :) she was created on this date. She was developed by a man named Brian ware. See, when I was 18, I was happy, in love, and unfortunately VERY gullible. This man emailed me, and over a period of 3 months we chatted back n forth and he slowly but surely crept into my head like the sick pedophile he is. It worked. I believed his lies, his fake made up, weak promises. Long story short (I'm writing a book about this) I was raped, didn't tell anyone, and he sold me straight into the sex industry, before I could even grasp what was happening.


That's how addison became, well, just addison. Brian took so much from me without me even knowing, but in turn the shit I've walked through in the darkest most scary times of my life, have made me, me.

Ill chip off my frozen tears, take my freezing body back up to my apt where I sit. Maybe ill take a bath, ill do some work. This day is so bittersweet.
I'd like to say I live my life with no regrets, but I can't lie and say I don't wonder who and where I'd be if I'd never answered brians email. The world moves fast, time doesn't stop for anyone, but days like these when I feel a sting, I stop, and it all becomes slow. If there is one person I'd like to be face to face with right now, I'd have to say Brian, just to ask: why?

That's all.
Loves.
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Naked Nap time

I'm taking my nap early today so I have more time to get online and play with YOU later. :) I'm naked in bed right now, hehe. I also shaved my pussy so I'm smooth and ready to tease to the max today. I wonder what I should wear today? Maybe some knee high socks? Some heels? Definitely going to be rockin something cute n sexy. Alright friends, time to sleep.
See ya in a couple hours!!!
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Very Late, And very Merry Christmas!

I'm sorry Ive left my blog in the cold the past few weeks...or month or whatever. HAHA. I got busy! Its not always easy being me ya know! haha. I think this video is absolutely hilarious at the beginning, the way I say "I wanted to wish you all a very merry christmas and a happy new year". I was purposely trying to be cheesy but I didnt know it was going to sound like something literally straight off the disney channel! hahaha! Oh well, just deal with it. 

I personally had a wonderful Christmas. How was yours? 

Loves.

A

NO! Bully YOU!

( I posted this on my PERSONAL facebook tonight) I kinda flipped out on my 'friends'. 

I can't keep my mouth shut. I've tried, but I refuse to be silent any longer. Another teen that was close to me has committed suicide this evening. Also, recently, a 15 year old boy shot himself in the bathroom at the school here in Vermont.  These heart hanging situations are happening more and more and it straight up makes me sick.

Words hurt!! DUH! I feel like a grandmother preaching to a grip of toddlers, don't confuse yourself though, I'm really speaking directly to ALL of those who found it OK and mature to BULLY a friend of mine I went to school with, over a topless picture that was leaked here on facebook.

(psh as if NON of you have EVER taken a nude photo with your cell phone. Psh, as if ALL of you have attractive nipples..really? Until you're willing to exploit yours, be silent-common knowledge)

There were over 90 comments in regards to this picture.

People bashing, criticizing, laughing, and even worse, blatantly excusing their OWN crude bullshit remarks: "its her fault, she posted this" "she took the pic" "she asked for it" "she doesnt care".

Read slower, because to me....this is serious. And it SHOULD be to you too, ESPECIALLY if you title yourself a MOTHER, especially if you, yourself lost a friend or loved one to suicide. IF you have been bullied.. just because in this case we are ALL fortunate (so far anyway-who knows) no one blew their head off, doesn't mean I'm going to let it sift under the rug without SOMETHING being stated.

STOP bullying people. STOP. Grow up. Our children are counting on us adults to BE adults. OWN your adulthood, you had your chance to be a shithead... and let's be honest, slandering a girl (I don't give a shit who it is, a human is human) online as if its a game, is immature, and ridiculous.

I haven't been able to shake some of the things I read and they weren't even directed to me. I'd stand up, and fight loudly for each and every one of you I accept as friends on here if you needed me,there is no exception for this girl.

If you know me well, you know I'm the last person that's afraid to speak her peace and I do it for a reason.

I care.

I don't want to see anymore of this childish bullshit on my facebook again.

I'm sick of burying MY FRIENDS because of ACTIONS like bullying.--that CAN be prevented simply with maturity and common courtesy.  If its your thing to slander people and "keep it going", to bully like a two year old... Then PLEASE delete me immediately.

I'd rather have NO friends, then friends that are willing to slaughter someone alive with words over a picture- or a rumor, or an appearance.

Put yourself (or your kid) in that spot, punch yourself around a bit before you punch hateful shit into your keyboard as if the person on the other side reading it doesn't have feelings.

Just because someone does something silly, unique, awkward, scandalous, gay, transexual, straight, WHATEVER...does NOT give you or anyone else the gateway to stoop and function in toddler mode.

Its not attractive, and in case you haven't noticed, its killing people.

I honestly hope I've made myself clear.

I won't stop, and Ill speak louder if need be.  

DO NOT THINK FOR EVEN A SECOND THAT THE WORDS YOU SPEAK COULD KILL A MOTHERS CHILD.

PS. I am truly sorry and embarrassed that people I call my friends verbally abused you for their own pleasure. Shame on them.

Makeup obsession

Okay, I admit! Ugh, I have a makeup fetish. I love it. I love doing it, seeing it, buying it (with your money) and using the human face as a canvas for some glittery fun art! I do my make up in my bathroom in the sink, usually in the nude :) I sit on a towel and I use the light from the rope light that wrapped around my mirror. I also write random things on my mirror with an expo marker. Right now it says "smile, breath, believe". On the other side to the right it says "money :)" ok, I'm rambling. Here's a pic of me perched on the sink getting ready to cake my face! :)
Loves.
A

Little laughter for u

A cop was on his horse waiting to cross the street, when a little girl on her new shiny bike stopped beside him. 'Nice bike,' the cop said. 'Did Santa bring it to you?''Yes sir,' the little girl said, 'he sure did!' The cop looked the bike over and handed the girl a $5 ticket for a safety violation. The cop said, 'Give this to your dad, and next year, tell Santa to puta reflector light on the back of it!'The young girl looked up at the cop and said, 'Nice horse you've got there sir. Did Santa bring it to you?' Playing along with the girl, he chuckled and answered,'Yes, he sure did!' The little girl looked up at the cop and said: 'Next year tell Santa the dick goes underneath the horse, not on top!
I can already see my daughter spatting this!
Loves.
A