Exclusive blogs, unlocking the doors to my secret scanalous world of being a well known phone sex operator. I'm Addie, welcome.
Tuesday, April 24, 2012
Cum..tell me if you like this..
Hopefully everyone can handle a little playtime with Addie.
:)
Can you appreciate it?
How about a lil photo fun... and a 10 fact game...
maybe you would like to get to know Addie a little better..
#1.
My favorite way to get my pussy off is to spread my legs like above and grind on a toy or my fingers...like this..only sliding them in and out..till its really wet.
#2.
I love this satin robe. I love wearing it...and only it..Its so soft against my bare skin.
(That just gave me goosebumps)
#3.
I enjoy smoking the peace pipe. Without Peace, There is no Love.
#4.
Sometimes, At night, I like to dress up in lingerie and fight crime around my neighborhood.
(DONT TELL!--but Im the hero..)
#5.
Id really enjoy sitting on your face right about now.
#6.
I love riding. Motorcycles, Bikes, Tricycles, Trains, Planes, Cock.
#7.
Teasing is probably one of my favorite roles to play. The excitement builds and things just get intense..like they should...
#8.
I do workout. I never used to, but I started doing so in the beginning of this year.
I dont want to look scrawny, by working out its actually put a lil curve on me, which is so wonderful!
"you look more like a woman"- Thanks Matt.
#9.
I enjoy going to sleep at night knowing some people are addicted to jerking off to me.
(hehe)
#10.
I Love, Love, Love, watching movies until 3am. I enjoy sleeping in until 11am.
It never happens.
Enjoy!
A
Monday, April 23, 2012
My Dog HATES my Moves
So Bentli isnt a fan of my dancing...hahaha. Here are a couple of clips..dont mind my crazy ass. hahahahha I had to be a little MORE crazy so hed really get pissed! hahahahha
Enjoy!
Enjoy!
Hahahah Im sucha FREAK!
You love it.
Heavy Stuff
I write heavy huh? Im not too sorry for it, Im learning to be transparent, showing who I really am. I believe that part of being successful as an actress, is having the ability to be vulnerable and showing your true self to your fans, this way, they can appreciate and love you for who you are, along side of the characters you play.
Ive been in this business for about 7 years now (Holy wowness, im not that innocent teeny bopper anymore!!--but I can still play the part so dont take away my token!!). I play a character. YES! The one you all know. Shes a kinky slut. She says things that you would NEVER catch me saying at a Thanksgiving dinner, to my parents, or a lover -- whatever. I have practiced the characteristics of Addison Rose for so long, that its a major part of my life. I enjoy it, just as Jennifer Aniston enjoyed playing the role of Rachel in "Friends".
A vast majority of people in my "real life" either do NOT understand this role I play, or its a secret to them. Ive been asked by family to keep this character on the DownLOW when meeting new people. In public, when Im asked my occupation I say "Im a stay at home mother"....which is true..but only one side of the truth. This bothers me. WHY? Because I do a hell of a lot more with my life then just stay at home with my daughter. (NOT taking away from that job--because it is a serious job in itself, one in which I take EXTREMELY serious--my two year old can count to 14..can yours? haha). I feel discounted of my own success. I find Addison to be a success. Aside from the context and the immorality of the character, its been a journey of constant learning, being beaten to my wits end with the shittiest side of the stick, just to fight my way back up to make her, Addison-at her best.
I started writing this with no intention of really making a point, I was actually just deep in thought and wanted to share it with yall. The more I write, the more clear it is to me that the concluded purpose of this blog will give insight to my fans and followers. I want you (yea, you reading this) to understand what it takes from me as a human, alongside of my family and friends, to play this character on top of my daily life, but also, that I truly enjoy this job of acting Addison.
There will be girls out there in this business, on twitter, myspace, facebook, nooky cooky booky ( i made that up..there is just too many places!) that will lead you to believe that the CHARACTER they are playing IS THEM. Thats the point of it. If you believe her, then she is good at what she does. Im here to bust that bubble for you today. POP!! She is human. She is someones daughter, most likely a mother, or some day will be. THATS where I find this industry unfortunate. Its hard to decipher the difference between playing a character, enjoy doing so, and being who you really are at the end of the day, with no regrets.
I witness too many women that "accidentally" pull the characteristics of their character into their every day life, which is one of the many reasons society is forced with the impression that because she is playing this scandalous character, she is a whore who has no morals in real life. (Ive heard this about myself-and believed it at one point). By taking on these roles, we are automatically labeled. By EVERYONE. Even you. Sometimes, even ourselves.
Its taken me all this time to really understand how strong of a woman you have to be, to be on point with your character AND your daily life-while separating the two roles. When people watch porn, I cant help but wonder if they think about what it takes for that girl or "pornstar" to mentally prepare herself to act out a sex role, or fantasy, on film or cam, for the pleasure of a viewer she will never know.
For me, its a matter of getting into the mood of the Character, setting my mind to that personality, and diving in deep for the fun. I set aside my motherhood, my daughter, my family, my life, and I play whatever Im asked to in the characteristics of Addison. Thats my job, and I love it.
When the time rolls around when my daughter is about to head home, I turn my phone off, Clean up my toys, put everything away...including Addison. I do NOT bring Addison into my motherhood, my daughter, my family, my life. Im no longer playing that character, I am me. I cook dinner, I do laundry, I teach my daughter, I read books, I exercise, I watch movies, talk on the phone with my friends, Im studying to get my life insurance license, I write on blogs, Im writing my book...etc. I live my life as I would if Addison does not exist.
When I said its taken me all this time to understand how strong you have to be to do this. What I meant is, its not easy staying FOCUSED on whatever it is that you are doing at that moment in time. I too used to collide the characteristics of the two roles and it caused a lot of judgement and dishonor to everything I had worked for in being a good mother, friend and daughter.
When my younger sister first learned about me doing porn her words to me were this "You are not my sister, you are disgusting." Ouch. Inside I was screaming trying to figure a way to make her and everyone else in my life at that time see that I really am just me, I just play a role for my job. She lost all respect for me. I recently listened to my father crying on the other end of my telephone at 2 in the morning telling me he was going to kill himself. He said he couldnt handle the rumors about his daughter being a whore, that it wasnt worth living through.
Its in these moments when Id break down. I hated Addison. I hated me. It took a lot for me to realize the bigger picture. I only THOUGHT I hated Addison but deep down, only because I LOVED the role, and truth of the matter is, no one else did. I felt my talent for being able to be an actress with a role so taboo as this was just rejected. So, I was conceived as "that girl". The Homecoming queen, Prom Queen, "popular" student who people looked up to, gone bad. Gone Perverse, soul sold to the devil.
So Ive spent the past 6 years fighting off the rumors, defending myself, trying to make people understand that this is okay, or that is fine, bla bla. I exhausted myself trying to be my real self, AND prove that my character was just as good, I tried to do this by combining the two people so maybe Addison would be accepted. Attempting this, I would act scandalous. Act out when my friends would leave mean comments. I was that adulteress in the bible my friends all talked about whos words were like warm honey, ya know? The one God warns you to stay away from.
I failed miserably at meshing Addison into my real life. Lesson learned..and I started being ME LOUDLY. I started planting my feet in the ground realllll firm. I stuck to my strong opinions and beliefs (about abortion, abuse, murder, bullying, motherhood, etc). In the first years of having the role of Addison occupy my life, I was afraid to be ME. I held in my thoughts and cares because I was AFRAID that people would just say ,...well you dont have a say in anything because you do what you do for work..and you're a mother, and in their simple mentality, that meant that all of my concerns and rights in life were revoked. "how could you call yourself a mother?"....
I am a mother. A damn good mother. I play a character, which is fun as hell. This is something that I consider to be a talent. Im happy in my life, I get to watch my child grow happily and go to bed each night with a full belly and a roof over her precious head, and the greatness is, I provide for her by doing the things that I enjoy in life--which are harmless to mankind btw, YES even though they are scandalous, or taboo to the simpletons. I learned that in reality, I may be the only one that understands it...but I really do have the best of both worlds. I'm strong enough, I am smart enough, to be me. The people that dont get me, could never be me. Thats the glory of it all my friends. :) So, long story..but in the end you learned that yea...sometimes life doesnt go as planned..and people dont always understand you..but until YOU understand and ACCEPT yourself for who you really are, NO ONE will respect you the way you deserve to be respected.
Much love.
A
Ive been in this business for about 7 years now (Holy wowness, im not that innocent teeny bopper anymore!!--but I can still play the part so dont take away my token!!). I play a character. YES! The one you all know. Shes a kinky slut. She says things that you would NEVER catch me saying at a Thanksgiving dinner, to my parents, or a lover -- whatever. I have practiced the characteristics of Addison Rose for so long, that its a major part of my life. I enjoy it, just as Jennifer Aniston enjoyed playing the role of Rachel in "Friends".
A vast majority of people in my "real life" either do NOT understand this role I play, or its a secret to them. Ive been asked by family to keep this character on the DownLOW when meeting new people. In public, when Im asked my occupation I say "Im a stay at home mother"....which is true..but only one side of the truth. This bothers me. WHY? Because I do a hell of a lot more with my life then just stay at home with my daughter. (NOT taking away from that job--because it is a serious job in itself, one in which I take EXTREMELY serious--my two year old can count to 14..can yours? haha). I feel discounted of my own success. I find Addison to be a success. Aside from the context and the immorality of the character, its been a journey of constant learning, being beaten to my wits end with the shittiest side of the stick, just to fight my way back up to make her, Addison-at her best.
I started writing this with no intention of really making a point, I was actually just deep in thought and wanted to share it with yall. The more I write, the more clear it is to me that the concluded purpose of this blog will give insight to my fans and followers. I want you (yea, you reading this) to understand what it takes from me as a human, alongside of my family and friends, to play this character on top of my daily life, but also, that I truly enjoy this job of acting Addison.
There will be girls out there in this business, on twitter, myspace, facebook, nooky cooky booky ( i made that up..there is just too many places!) that will lead you to believe that the CHARACTER they are playing IS THEM. Thats the point of it. If you believe her, then she is good at what she does. Im here to bust that bubble for you today. POP!! She is human. She is someones daughter, most likely a mother, or some day will be. THATS where I find this industry unfortunate. Its hard to decipher the difference between playing a character, enjoy doing so, and being who you really are at the end of the day, with no regrets.
I witness too many women that "accidentally" pull the characteristics of their character into their every day life, which is one of the many reasons society is forced with the impression that because she is playing this scandalous character, she is a whore who has no morals in real life. (Ive heard this about myself-and believed it at one point). By taking on these roles, we are automatically labeled. By EVERYONE. Even you. Sometimes, even ourselves.
Its taken me all this time to really understand how strong of a woman you have to be, to be on point with your character AND your daily life-while separating the two roles. When people watch porn, I cant help but wonder if they think about what it takes for that girl or "pornstar" to mentally prepare herself to act out a sex role, or fantasy, on film or cam, for the pleasure of a viewer she will never know.
For me, its a matter of getting into the mood of the Character, setting my mind to that personality, and diving in deep for the fun. I set aside my motherhood, my daughter, my family, my life, and I play whatever Im asked to in the characteristics of Addison. Thats my job, and I love it.
When the time rolls around when my daughter is about to head home, I turn my phone off, Clean up my toys, put everything away...including Addison. I do NOT bring Addison into my motherhood, my daughter, my family, my life. Im no longer playing that character, I am me. I cook dinner, I do laundry, I teach my daughter, I read books, I exercise, I watch movies, talk on the phone with my friends, Im studying to get my life insurance license, I write on blogs, Im writing my book...etc. I live my life as I would if Addison does not exist.
When I said its taken me all this time to understand how strong you have to be to do this. What I meant is, its not easy staying FOCUSED on whatever it is that you are doing at that moment in time. I too used to collide the characteristics of the two roles and it caused a lot of judgement and dishonor to everything I had worked for in being a good mother, friend and daughter.
When my younger sister first learned about me doing porn her words to me were this "You are not my sister, you are disgusting." Ouch. Inside I was screaming trying to figure a way to make her and everyone else in my life at that time see that I really am just me, I just play a role for my job. She lost all respect for me. I recently listened to my father crying on the other end of my telephone at 2 in the morning telling me he was going to kill himself. He said he couldnt handle the rumors about his daughter being a whore, that it wasnt worth living through.
Its in these moments when Id break down. I hated Addison. I hated me. It took a lot for me to realize the bigger picture. I only THOUGHT I hated Addison but deep down, only because I LOVED the role, and truth of the matter is, no one else did. I felt my talent for being able to be an actress with a role so taboo as this was just rejected. So, I was conceived as "that girl". The Homecoming queen, Prom Queen, "popular" student who people looked up to, gone bad. Gone Perverse, soul sold to the devil.
So Ive spent the past 6 years fighting off the rumors, defending myself, trying to make people understand that this is okay, or that is fine, bla bla. I exhausted myself trying to be my real self, AND prove that my character was just as good, I tried to do this by combining the two people so maybe Addison would be accepted. Attempting this, I would act scandalous. Act out when my friends would leave mean comments. I was that adulteress in the bible my friends all talked about whos words were like warm honey, ya know? The one God warns you to stay away from.
I failed miserably at meshing Addison into my real life. Lesson learned..and I started being ME LOUDLY. I started planting my feet in the ground realllll firm. I stuck to my strong opinions and beliefs (about abortion, abuse, murder, bullying, motherhood, etc). In the first years of having the role of Addison occupy my life, I was afraid to be ME. I held in my thoughts and cares because I was AFRAID that people would just say ,...well you dont have a say in anything because you do what you do for work..and you're a mother, and in their simple mentality, that meant that all of my concerns and rights in life were revoked. "how could you call yourself a mother?"....
I am a mother. A damn good mother. I play a character, which is fun as hell. This is something that I consider to be a talent. Im happy in my life, I get to watch my child grow happily and go to bed each night with a full belly and a roof over her precious head, and the greatness is, I provide for her by doing the things that I enjoy in life--which are harmless to mankind btw, YES even though they are scandalous, or taboo to the simpletons. I learned that in reality, I may be the only one that understands it...but I really do have the best of both worlds. I'm strong enough, I am smart enough, to be me. The people that dont get me, could never be me. Thats the glory of it all my friends. :) So, long story..but in the end you learned that yea...sometimes life doesnt go as planned..and people dont always understand you..but until YOU understand and ACCEPT yourself for who you really are, NO ONE will respect you the way you deserve to be respected.
Much love.
A
Saturday, April 14, 2012
Jamaican Me Crazy!!!!
So Most of you know I have been SILENT in the past month ..or so. hehe. SORRY! So the bad news is over, I was gone! The good news is...Im back now! The best news of it all is that I had the most absolute best time EVER!!!
I went to Jamaica.
I also have a Jamaican boyfriend now. His name is Hartlon. This is us...Hes not REALLY my bf..I just joke around about it..I was just flirting... a little...WHAT?!/..... Its fun.
I went over St. Patricks day...and I decided it would be a blast to stay up the night before and get the party started early in a little pub that I literally stumbled into called the Criketterrs Pub..or something like that....
So basically I tore that shit all up..and my new friends will probably never forget Addie Doll Mon.
THANK YOU TO ALL OF YOU WONDERFUL FANS OF MINE THAT SUPPORT ME AND GIVE ME THE OPPORTUNITY TO TRAVEL THE WORLD LIKE THIS!!!
--Here are some pics I took to share with yall--
PEACE....LOVE...HAPPINESS.
I FUCKED ON THIS BALCONY IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT AND MADE SURE EVERYONE HEARD. HAAHAHHA IT WAS FUCKTASTIC LET ME TELL YOU.
SOMETHING ABOUT PUBLIC SEX IS A HOT HOT THING...JUST MY OPINION.
THIS IS A SHOT..ALL LIQUOR WITH MOONSHINE ON TOP..YOU SUCK IT DOWN IN ONE GULP...AND THEN YOUR BODY JUST FEELS HOT...ON FIRE HOT. MEOW...
I TOOK THREE OF THESE....HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA
THE END.
I went to Jamaica.
I also have a Jamaican boyfriend now. His name is Hartlon. This is us...Hes not REALLY my bf..I just joke around about it..I was just flirting... a little...WHAT?!/..... Its fun.
THANK YOU TO ALL OF YOU WONDERFUL FANS OF MINE THAT SUPPORT ME AND GIVE ME THE OPPORTUNITY TO TRAVEL THE WORLD LIKE THIS!!!
--Here are some pics I took to share with yall--
PEACE....LOVE...HAPPINESS.
SOMETHING ABOUT PUBLIC SEX IS A HOT HOT THING...JUST MY OPINION.
Monday, January 30, 2012
Taylor Armstrong
I've been a big fan of the real housewives of beverly hills. I love the show bc of the drama, bc I don't allow drama within my own physical word.
With that being said, Taylor Armstrong is a former housewife in the past seasons of the show.
I, LAST season, had mentioned my concern about her relationship with her husband to my friend.
What made me look at him and say...she's being abused? I called it from a mile away. I've been in the lifestyle of a physically, emotionally, and verbally abusive relationship. I see the signs. The controlling behavior and the terrified plead for help on Mrs. Armstrongs face. Her body emotions, her submissive actions and comments.
I was right. Long story short, Russell, her husband, killed himself (hung himself in their bedroom, taylor found him) after she divorced him. There were accusations that he had beaten her, abused her etc. From her, her friends, the web, pictures have been leaked etc.
STOP--- think.
Take this serious.
To us, at home. This is dramatic. We see these things from a screen, whether it be computer, tv or phone. We aren't there.
In turn, we forget on the other side of these devices, ARE REAL PEOPLE WHO HAVE REAL FEELINGS.
The ridiculous tweets, comments, opinions, etc that are being published are so degrading it is embarrassing to mankind.
Are these immature, judgmental bullies writing this stuff without thinking about what its like to be HER? Or even to just simply be themselves in a situation/lifestyle as hers?
Its easy to sit behind a wall and tear people down for the simple fact that you can, and not have to feel the pain and suffering they do when they try to close their eyes to fall asleep at night.
Everyone can talk, everyone can have an opinion, however it seems our world is crippled, hurting in result of taking advantage of "freedom of speech".
We have our people over in other countries fighting, sacrificing their own lives and families for our freedom, and this is how we treat each other? This is how we celebrate our freedom?
Really????
WHAT. THE. FUCK?
Really people? Why?
What is the purpose of being hateful and malicious for fun? How is hurting people and bringing them down entertaining?
Taylor Armstrong is human. What she has done, said, shit out, or ate for breakfast, shouldn't be societies focus right now. How is SHE feeling?
These bullies sleep at night with hateful humor on their conscience, with the deceiving feeling that karma isn't real, and after them for their actions.
Maybe ONE of those thousands of bullies that CHOSE to demean Taylor while she's in this state of life....maybe, just maybe its their kid that will be murdered by their bf 10 years down the road.
Maybe, just maybe, they will randomly get hit head on by a semi truck killing their whole family, being the only survivor, having only THEN to feel the pain they enhanced during this time on taylor. Bet your bottom dollar they won't think its karma cashing in at this tragic moment in their life.
Karma is a very real thing. Very.
Never, for a second, take advantage of the love you have in your heart.
Offer that love to someone when they are down, when they need a smile, or just nice "hello". All else aside. Is this hard to comprehend?
Its a wonderful feeling to treat people with the kindness and dignity that you, yourself deserve to be treated with.
Do so, and you will quickly realize the results of love are far more pleasurable then those results brought of by actions of hate.
I don't think our world was created for this kind of hatred, not when love is so much more powerful.
*shakes head in disgrace of these cruel humans*
Taylor, you are beautiful, you may be broken now, but you have your pieces in hand, and the ones who love you and support you WILL be your adhesive to help you put your world, your family, back together. Your strong. You've got this. Chin up lady. You have been through some of the darkest nights and scariest times, and you're still alive to tell about it. You're a winner. Don't let these negative neds and nancies shift your strength.
Love and support,
Addie
Sent from my Verizon Wireless BlackBerry
Thursday, January 26, 2012
Who am I now?
Sometimes the weight of life shifts and it feels like my world is spinning lopsided on a broken axel, and I'm either gonna lose my grip and fall off, or eventually give in and jump. I of course get those blasts of energy where I feel SO powerful, like I can fix not only my world, but all the floppy ones around me. That fades if I don't take my prozac on time.
January 26th 2006. Ill never ever ever forget that date. Here I sit, 6 years later, on this same date in a freezing cold field trying to feel my fingers as I vent to my blackberry...which will eventually reach you. (Technology is awesome yea?)
Some of you may know me as addison. :) she was created on this date. She was developed by a man named Brian ware. See, when I was 18, I was happy, in love, and unfortunately VERY gullible. This man emailed me, and over a period of 3 months we chatted back n forth and he slowly but surely crept into my head like the sick pedophile he is. It worked. I believed his lies, his fake made up, weak promises. Long story short (I'm writing a book about this) I was raped, didn't tell anyone, and he sold me straight into the sex industry, before I could even grasp what was happening.
That's how addison became, well, just addison. Brian took so much from me without me even knowing, but in turn the shit I've walked through in the darkest most scary times of my life, have made me, me.
Ill chip off my frozen tears, take my freezing body back up to my apt where I sit. Maybe ill take a bath, ill do some work. This day is so bittersweet.
I'd like to say I live my life with no regrets, but I can't lie and say I don't wonder who and where I'd be if I'd never answered brians email. The world moves fast, time doesn't stop for anyone, but days like these when I feel a sting, I stop, and it all becomes slow. If there is one person I'd like to be face to face with right now, I'd have to say Brian, just to ask: why?
That's all.
Loves.
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Sent from my Verizon Wireless BlackBerry
January 26th 2006. Ill never ever ever forget that date. Here I sit, 6 years later, on this same date in a freezing cold field trying to feel my fingers as I vent to my blackberry...which will eventually reach you. (Technology is awesome yea?)
Some of you may know me as addison. :) she was created on this date. She was developed by a man named Brian ware. See, when I was 18, I was happy, in love, and unfortunately VERY gullible. This man emailed me, and over a period of 3 months we chatted back n forth and he slowly but surely crept into my head like the sick pedophile he is. It worked. I believed his lies, his fake made up, weak promises. Long story short (I'm writing a book about this) I was raped, didn't tell anyone, and he sold me straight into the sex industry, before I could even grasp what was happening.
That's how addison became, well, just addison. Brian took so much from me without me even knowing, but in turn the shit I've walked through in the darkest most scary times of my life, have made me, me.
Ill chip off my frozen tears, take my freezing body back up to my apt where I sit. Maybe ill take a bath, ill do some work. This day is so bittersweet.
I'd like to say I live my life with no regrets, but I can't lie and say I don't wonder who and where I'd be if I'd never answered brians email. The world moves fast, time doesn't stop for anyone, but days like these when I feel a sting, I stop, and it all becomes slow. If there is one person I'd like to be face to face with right now, I'd have to say Brian, just to ask: why?
That's all.
Loves.
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Sent from my Verizon Wireless BlackBerry
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